Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Witnessing harsh words

Date & Time: 23rd November 2011 (Wednesday) 12.44am
Location: My Secret Spot
Mood: Disappointment and hurt
Song Playing: Muse - Sing for Absolution


i feel like running away...although things like this isnt something new to me..it still manages to hurt me...I feel more alone than i was before...with the enormous dark cloud above my head...i just wish it will go away...but i have to wait...for another 12 days...time is running out...i cud feel from every sense in my body so strongly that he's slipping away...he can't...he can't do this to me...it will be injustice...but he's not the same anymore...i am worried...if i tell him wat has happened...he'll run away..then i'll have to go thru this alone...


Ppl are unaware...carrying weapons with them in their tongues...today...i got hurt..simply by words...the power of words spewed by a certain someone..living under the same roof...made me ran away..here..to this peaceful place...i can't be sure..i dun feel safe anywhere...


I have one qns for her..."if she's so reliable as u say she is...where is she now..? wouldn't she have been here for u?" 


It's true anger made ppl say hurtful things to others...cud be at that moment they simply lost their minds...but there is such a thing called conscience...y dun they divert their attention to that for a change? Instead...they just wanna use their weapons...hurting others seems to bring them satisfaction or rather contentment...


Sometimes i feel like a fool for arming my heart with a lot of love...they say love trumps hate...i wonder wat they think about that...i dun see dat happening here at all...neither at home.. nor amongst some other ppl..


Like i said before...sometimes my brain tells me its all not worth it anymore wen harsh words were spoken..promises were broken...but my heart is being retarded and doesnt stop caring...


Does it make me weak...? i really don't know...


Maybe i shud go away...the tribe has spoken...their leader doesnt want me here...i shud really go away...if dats the only way the rest cud be happy...